It is Monday...

So it is Monday, and surprisingly I am not dreading the week. Last night I was all kinds of stressed out, but I stayed up and cleaned, and I tell you what...all of those clean surfaces has reduced my stress level.

I'm hoping this is a week of renewal for me. I've slid a little bit this past week in my time with the Lord, and I can tell. I don't have that peace that comes from spending one on one time with God.

So first thing on my to do list is open up the word and hear what the Lord has for me today.

Then after my time with Him, I should be ready to tackle the rest of my day and week. Its funny how sometimes it is so hard to spend time with the Lord even when you know it will soothe your soul.

So that is the first part of this blog. The second is kind of a mini update:

Haven't heard anything about new Birthmoms or potential situations. We are still waiting. I will call in during the second week of February and hopefully have a little information, but until then we wait, and wait, and wait some more! : )

So that is what is going on in our little world. Have a blessed week my friends.

Bad day turned out just fine!

Today was a long day. I wish I could tell you that it was one of my better days as a human being, but then I'd be lying.

This morning started off pretty rough as I was trying to get ready for Bible Study. The kids were just going at each other like crazy. Normally I don't have to be anywhere so I can monitor them and keep the bickering at bay, but this morning was a nightmare, and I'm afraid I blew my top. I was in a bad mood after that which I hate, because when the mornings start off like that they seem to spiral down after that.

It seems the harder I try to get to church the harder it is for me to get there. I've been thinking a lot about self-control lately, and it has been popping up in my devotionals too. The definition of self-control was even written on a board at church that was left over from AWANAS. When I saw that I was like, "Okay Lord, I hear you".

I struggle with self-control. I struggle with it in my love of food, in my ability to keep my temper in check, and in areas of discipline, and it is hard for me, and frustrating for me to find myself constantly lacking and strugglingin this area.

I want to be self-controlled as the Lord wants to me self-controlled, but it is hard, and something that I am working on.

I was blessed by the women in my Bible Study this morning, as they are honest,and straight shooters, and I always take away something that really encourages me in my walk. Judy has a sweet and honest spirit, Donna with her honest insights, Jane with her quiet wisdom, Betty who tells it like it is and so full of love for prayer, and Angela's personality reminds me of mine, and I am so blessed by her desire to seek the Lord.

I am blessed by these women.

Hopefully one day I can be a blessing to someone as well. Right now I feel like a total work in progress and some days its all I can do to just hang on to the Lord, and have faith in His divine plan for my life.

Over all today ended up pretty well, and I feel recharged for Sunday...who knows what will come my way then, but hopefully the self-control and discipline will find me sitting in church on Sunday.

My happily ever after

So I was chatting on Facebook today with a friend(my husband's best man from our wedding), and I really enjoyed our conversation. We talked about some new developments in his life, and about my hubs. He and Brian were in the military together, and is one of the few men in Brian's life that he actually considers a true friend.

We talked a little and talked a little about Brian, and I could not help myself. I can speak all day long about my husband. It was nice to speak with someone that appreciates the kind of man Brian is.

I fell in love with Brian at the age of 16 and there really has been no looking back for me.

After we married we were blessed to be able to take on traditional roles. He goes out and works hard to provide for our family and I stay home and see to the kids and the running of the household.

This is my blog, and I'm not out to make enemies or step on toes, but this is how I feel. I truly believe that staying home and taking care of my family has enabled me to have the Happily Ever After that I have always dreamed of.

I am blessed that I don't have to work outside of the home, so I do not have anything else to distract me from my marriage relationship. I am free to be daily devoted to the care of my husband and children. I know that sounds like a miserable trap to some women, and I confess early on in our relationship before we were married, I told him straight out I didn't want to have kids, and I wanted a career and dogs.

He laughed and told me that one day I would want kids...I thought he was INSANE! He was right...shhh...I don't like to admit that to often. : )

Our marriage hasn't always been easy, but we have pushed on and are more in love today than when we first met, and my heart still jumps when he enters a room.

Throw out words like submission and many women freak, but the kind of submission I know has given me more freedom than if I fought against my husband. (For the record I haven't always been successful at submission and every time it has bit me in the butt).

My husband loves me more than himself, and I give my opinions freely, but the ultimate decisions lie with him. He is the head of this household, and it is wonderful to see him move within the role God has called him to.

It is my pleasure to be married to this man. I adore him, and can't imagine my life without him. I enjoy our traditional roles, and love that I am able to stop anything I am doing to make time for him, and for us.

He is my very best friend, my lover, and my partner in all things, and I am so proud to be his wife.

I could sit here all day and talk about how much I love my husband, but he is about to call me on the phone, so for now I must go.

So happy to be his wife.