Just keep swimming...just keep swimming...

Well, I am just swimming along here through my adoption check list, and I'm feeling so much more relaxed this time around. I just feel at peace. I am resting in the fact that God already has our child picked out for us, and so nothing I do will make our baby come faster, and nothing I do will mess up God's perfect timing. I know I get scared sometimes, but it is so nice to know that the Lord is in control. It makes this process so much easier KNOWING that HE has it under control. Now I know this doesn't mean that I might not have a freak out here or there along the way, but it is awesome how calm I feel at this moment. I keep praying for my child's birth family, and I pray for him (or her) as well. I swear I might actually be enjoying the process this time. Its kind of like a pregnancy in so many ways, but without the morning sickness, bloating, and swollen ankles...it does have pain of its own though. I'm just so thankful for all of the support we have been getting through this process from our friends. Praise God from whom ALL blessings flow. May He continue to teach me and mold me during this long and sometimes difficult process. So like Dory (in Finding Nemo) I will "just keep swimming, just keep swimming" through the process, and pray daily to remain surrendered to the Lord not only through this process, but long after its over.